Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Going my own way

Those of you who've been reading my blog for a while may remember my post You can go your own waaaaayyy...I wrote back in March of this year. You can follow the link and read the whole post, but I want to highlight one part:
I don’t want to be one of the birds lost in the crowd, counting on an unreliable leader to take me to some unknown happy place. Or worse, not even know who my leader is. I want to be one of the birds who goes his own way. I want to be my own bird, and my little birds to be their own too. Most importantly, I want to know where I’m going.

This is the year, kids. This year, I crossed the threshold of my thirties and am looking ahead to many more changes and adventures. This year I’m making a change. I’m not sure what it is; I may still have a way to go before I’m out of the throng of confusion. But this year...I’m getting out and I’m flying south.

I had been inspired watching a flock of birds hover over an intersection. As the vast majority of the birds constantly changed directions, some periodically peeled away to head south. I wanted so badly to be one of those that left the group to find their own way and not have to do life like everyone else. Or anyone else. I just wanted to be me.

I truly did not know how I would be able to make that happen, or what opportunities would present themselves, but I gathered the same determination I had as a single mother determined to move out of my mother's house and spend Christmas with my boys in our own home (which I did, by the way). My goal was to move forward with my dreams this year, and not to wait a second longer.

And guess what. I've done it! I am entering a new phase of adventure in my life and I'm ecstatic. I have said a tearful goodbye to my friends and coworkers at the bank and am home now full time. Most importantly, I will be available to our children any time of day and will be able to manage our crazy home more efficiently. Also, I will be devoting myself to my doula clients and continuing to pursue certification as a Childbirth Educator. I will also be blogging in a new venue, so be on the lookout for that!

I have new challenges ahead, which we'll tackle as they come, and I think I'm up for it. I hope you'll be there along the way to offer suggestions and encouragement!



Erin said...

Missy, that's sooooo awesome that you get to stay at home!! Hurrah!! And I love that you get to pursue your doula & childbirth dreams. I'm so excited for you!

Crosby said...

Yippee!! I thought I had missed out on some news when you kept posting about working from home. I think it is SPECTACULAR when people step out and do something they want to do even when they don't really have all the answers. Good for you! It will always work out for you - even when it seems it's not - it will!!

Missy Rose said...

Thanks, Erin - you are ALWAYS so encouraging and a wonderful friend. And you're right Crosby, Marc and I really felt like it was the right timing for our family for me to begin staying home. It was a step of faith for sure because things are pretty crazy these days, but as it turns out everything is falling into place. I'm right where I'm supposed to be, for me, for Marc and our kids.


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