Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The List

I think we're overdue for a list, don't you? This isn't the original, or the last, just one of many. I was all about lists, or the list in particular on my old blog. And right now I feel like I've got scrambled egg brain with all the projects I want to get going, the crazy life of a 6-pack (my term for our modern day Brady bunch), and well, everything else. So I think it's just time for a list of randomness. Like a salt shaker, my brain needs to be emptied every now and then just to get filled back up in an orderly fashion again. So, here goes, here's what's a-happenin' in there these days:

  1. I am loving all things domestic lately. I've been cooking and baking (see tomato pie and family night), staying on top of cleaning, meal planning, organizing feels like a breath of fresh air. I feel like I can see clearly and I have space in my brain and heart when my surroundings are at peace and I'm creating yummy things and feeding them to my family.
  2. I'm realizing I'm a lot more uptight that I'd like to admit. I get antsy and anxious and impatient, particularly with our kids, and I don't like that. I've been trying to be the laid back mom the last week or so, and not get my panties in a wad about about all the little things that don't matter. I want to love them and focus on all that I love about them, and discipline when it's needed rather than when I want to be in control.
  3. It's hard becoming a not-so-single mom, and there is a lot of pride in being an single mom. A successful one. Although I am gaining a partner in life and parenthood, I sometimes feel that I am losing a sense of strength and identity and can't-put-my-finger-on-it thing I know I fought really hard to earn.
  4. I'm pretty sure I'm in denial that I'm planning a wedding. The other day I got an email from The Knot, which I signed up for but haven't done anything with, and it said we're 87 days away. Isn't that...CLOSE? To be fair, we've got the locations, the man, the maids, the dudes, the food, the dress (after buying one then having an emotional breakdown that I picked the wrong one, and trading it in for a different one...that I had to rush order but they promised me it'll get here in time), the invitations (picked out anyway), the photographer, the band (that's a surprise...), getting close on the cupcakes, and a pretty darn good idea of decorations. That's good right? Right?! Please tell me the bridesmaids are going to be in charge of the bachelorette party. Do we do that for second weddings?
  5. I feel born again after discovering South Beach Diet. And I want to share the gospel.
  6. I'm developing an addiction to Food Network night time, particularly Restaurant Impossible, Chopped, Iron Chef America, and Tough Cookies.
  7. I'm loving going to church on Friday nights, and going to church regularly in general. I'd forgotten how much I loved it.
  8. My baby turns four tomorrow, and breaks my heart every day he loses his baby-ness.
  9. I need a list of its own just for the house projects I want to get done. Crafting, sewing, knitting projects too. And I WILL make it.
  10. As scattered as I feel most days...I am becoming acutely aware that my dreams really are coming true, and I live a truly blessed life.
That's a start for tonight. I will now force myself to go to bed, where my 5 year old awaits who has a horrible jaw length canker sore in his mouth and is Mister Pitiful. And, I'm not gonna lie, I love that he's sleepin' with me tonight.

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